lights

gaiz an agent has requested a revise and resubmit on my drug contemporary YA thing

instead of a rejection


awesome.

She wants me to take out the crossdressing

fuck my life I loved that part


this is a poem I did while waiting for my chicken to grill

just kidding it doesn't rhyme

at least not all the time


guys I think I finally might be going somewhere

lights lights lights


in my eyesssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss

i hate literary people

sometimes I yelled at them to go spiritually wank on their blogs instead of during class assignments

sometimes this bullshit is worth it


SOMETIMES I FEEL GOOD
but I'm not sleeping now



I don't want to be fabulous or beautiful or sexy or undeniable




I want to be good

I don't care what the moon says, it's autumn on Sept. 1st

I have choices.

FALL IS RAPIDLY APPROACHING AND I AM NEARLY DONE WITH REVISIONS, so now is the time to get to figuring what I'm gonna write next. I've got Ideas (TM) boilin'.

1. That Triad book - The Adjudicator, Machinator, and Propagator bit, where those are the codenames of the three kids in a school dispensing 'justice'. The Mockingbirds was a recently released YA that did a piss poor job of this justice dispensing squad deal. Basically in my plot, the 'justice' goes too far and some unknown quantity murders someone and tries to blame it on the Adjudicator Machinator Propagator triad.

AMP know each other from childhood, because M's sister molested him constantly (incestyay) and A and P banned together and tried to pull a prank on her to get her to stop. Unfortunately, it killed her and they had to cover it up together. AMP have since been dispensing similar justice in the school. The murderer goes by the name Liberator. In reality, Liberator is a girl who had a crush on M's sister that AMP accidentally killed, so she's trying to get back at them by murdering + blaming it on them. (lesyay) Very gritty complex stuff and I'll actually have to focus hard.

The MC would be some kind of school paper reporter. Possibly a super nerd. The Love interest would probably be the Adjudicator, who's been in and out of juvie and is angry, but is really fair under the punk exterior. Machinator would be a 'dumb jock' who has an IQ of about a milllion. Propagator is the student council head, who's prim and has split personality disorder, where he's all proper by day and a slut by night.

2. Ghost camera story - Basically entirely inspired by Fatal Frame. Definetly a historical fantasy, I'm thinking victorian. Frilly dresses, etc. A girl who's got an old fashioned camera that can see ghosts goes to a summer house of a friend's.

Lo and behold, a terrible massacre happened there a while back. I'm thinking family cult that sacrifices their eldest daughter for some reason. Eldest daughter didn't want to die because she loved some farm boy,so  when they killed her her ghost went psycho and slaughtered them all. I WANT TO FIT creepy little girls who like to torture people in there. I had a creepy fucking dream about a room with two curtains and a vermillion lighting scheme, and anyone who walked in was immediately possessed and murderous.

Anyway, girl with camera's gotta soothe a house full of angry ghosts plus the eldest daughter ghost who is bad news. Not sure there would be a love interest for her here, it would mostly just be creepy stuff and pretty dresses.

3. Band story - By far the lightest in terms of emotion. JUST A STORY ABOUT A GIRL STARTING A BAND. Though, to spice it up, I wanted to pull a Hana Kimi and make the MC attend school as a boy for some reason. (genderbendyay) Sorta like K-ON! plus Twelfth Night? Who knows. The Love interest would be severely confused about his sexuality because the MC is a boy as far as he knows, and one of her band members would develop a crush on her.

Basically, plot-wise, MC is the last member of the rock club because all the seniors left and she's the only one who joined her freshman year. If they don't get four members, the club will shut down. MC is desperate to get people to join. (Later, you figure out she had a friend in middle school who got in a car accident who's now in a coma, who really wanted to join rock club. So MC is kinda keeping it together for her).

A rich bitch girl FANTASTIC at classic piano would be blackmailed by the MC to play keyboard in the band. There would be a really nice/shy bookworm girl who would come forward to play drums, and a super serious super depressed super sarcastic loner girl would play bass, and the MC obviously would get lead guitar and mic. I was also thinking the school space cadet could be a part and play a random instrument every time, like a triangle, castanets, so at one point it would be like;

"What the fuck is that, Verity?"

"A garbage lid!"

"Jesus christ, just get on the stage."

The band name would be like...fuck I don't know. I suck at band names. "Fuck You It's Tea Time" was the original name, but maybe that's too much of a homage to K-ON!'s "Houkago Tea Time".

Anyway, it would be badass and end with them rocking out until they die.




anyway.

sddddddddddddddddddd

I've figured it out.



deity:

HERE'S HOW.

Fifty pages written over one weekend later

and everything is right with my stupid little(big) imaginary worlds again.



AND EVERYTHING IS.

SUMMING ACCURATELY

Michelle P says
YUP.

so Laura had a problem with like

the fact I kept stressing Talcade was people-dumb

but was kissing all sexy like

and I was like

THIS IS NOT A PROBLEM

lawl

Sarah H says

he practiced on his pillow?

lol

Michelle P says

D:

Sarah H says

Im people dumb and I'm a good kisser

Michelle P says

RIGHT?

Sarah H says

*coughpretentiousbitchcough*

hahaha

Michelle P says

people can be people dumb

but still be instinctual kissers?

Sarah H says

yeah

Michelle P says

my logic is so skewed

Sarah H says

nah

maybe

like

have Rho muse on that though

that may be interesting

Michelle P says

LOL right

well he says like

all creepy

that all his roommates used the couch for was making out with girls

and plus like tons of underclassmen like him

I DUNNO

LOGIC

fuck actual character development

I worry about the validity of hawt kissing

Sarah H says

　

I just make my characters dry hump and everything is right with the world

Michelle P says

DEE END~~

Sarah H says

yup

Michelle P says

god on the airplane

there was like this super hot swedish/romanian/didn'tspeakenglish/whatever dude

black hair and hot as fuck JUST MAI TASTE RIGHT

I was making googly eyes

the whole time


Sarah H says

HAH!

Michelle P says

and his little sister was next to him giving me shitlooks

I was like

BITCH FUCK YOUR BROTHER COMPLEX HE MINE

dunno why I just thought of that now

I SO FORGETFUL

Sarah H says

HAHA

was he giving googly eyes back?

Michelle P says

nope

totally ignored

probably gay

after 12+ hours in the air I also looked like fucking hell, my eyeliner all smeared and shit

hair crazy

tho I had a nice dress on? That makes up for it.

but what was I gonna do?

airplane bathroom make out?

YEAH RIGHT

I am not that eezy

Plus what would we talk about?

what do they have in romania?

Wikipedia says good cheeses and dragons

Fuck that.

EDITTTTTTTTTTTTTT:

I want to name a book

I Miss the Sunrise


I feel so fucking empty now that I don't have a thing to obsess over (aka a book to write). This is my least favorite part. Revising sucks hard and is not nearly as all-encompassing as writing. this part requires logic and objectivity and that's bullshit.

bullshitbullshitshitbulls

Now is the time to perform great feats of badassery. Now is the time to make everything on fire.

The problem I think people will have with Rho is she's a mary sue. I set out making her popular and pretty and well liked because I was so sick of everyone bashing mary sues like they were some unholy plague. Perfection is not bad. Not even perfection, NOT being an awkward ugly duckling social outcast is not a reason to insta-hate a character. Stereotypes are NOT FUCKING BAD, PEOPLE. THEY ARE LIFE. GET OVER YOURSELVES.

yami sae kudaku chikara de hohoemu kimi ni aitai~~

I'M DOWN LIKE MY INTERNET CONNECTION

WHO'S BACK BITCHES

NOT ME


JUST KIDDING I'M HERE BUT JETFAGGED


SEE WHAT I DID THERE



also fuck books